ever realize-

that you are extremely blessed? yeah well i did today. i am still pretty sick and i was really bored so i decided to make a slide show of tanner & i's relationship. hes kind of the best. tanner clearly goes on his mission soon.. everyone is well aware if you read my blog. the discussion of if im gonna wait for him constantly comes up. & yes i am. tanner is truly my best friend. i want to spend forever with him and no one makes me happier. i always think about how hard its going to be with him gone for 2 years because ive honestly spent the past year and a half connected at the hip with him. im excited to write him every week, send him packages, and especially excited for it to be over with. this is a slideshow from the very beginning of our relationship until now.

i love you babe. 

my saturday night.

this weekend i havent felt too great. i have a really bad sore throat and my head feels as if it weighs close to 1 ton. but anyyyway. so tanner & i got invited on a group date by my new bestfriend ali hill& her bf jaycob brugman. jaycob plays baseball at byu & ali could quite possibly be the sweetest girl alive. we went out to park city & ate pizza at davanzas. BOMB--btw, then went to alis condo at a ski resort to hot tub & play games. it was really fun minus the fact that i seriously feel like crap. although saturday is over-- here is my question....

how have you changed in the past 2 years?

i asked tanner which question to choose & he liked this one. i honestly have changed in about every aspect you can think of. in march of 2010 i was a junior in high school. i mean i guess i still look the same but everything else about me feels different. i was in the middle of training for track and getting ready to go to regionals for shot put. most people think thats a joke- but seriously im a beast. :) i had friends then that i still have, and other friends that i havent spoken to since then. i think that one thing that really changed about me since then is my maturity level and my absolute need for the gospel in my life. first of all- i have alwayssss been mature for my age. i always have been grown up in a lot of ways. im an independent person and like to do things for myself. but over the past two years i really think i have had to grow up in different ways. i moved away from home and had no choice but to be a big girl. also the gospel has seriously become SO SO SOOO important. everyone i feel like has had times in their lives where they just feel so alone. that feeling sucks. its hard to just make yourself happy when you feel like everything around you is so difficult to deal with. over the past 2 years the LDS church has truly become something that i need in my life. moving away from home- i cried a lot. no one really knows but it stunk. it was hard because i am so family oriented and my siblings are seriously the best people ever. along with my parents of course. but prayer and conference talks are some of the things that i have grown to appreciate so much more. i got out of a relationship in 2010 and got into one that has truly changed my life. tanner has become the ultimate best friend and i dont give him all the credit he deserves for doing so much for me. he makes me happier than i can describe and has changed me in countless ways. i honestly am so blessed in so many ways.

an attempt...

to blog everyday this month- im gonna start this  interview survey thing. also i failed to mention yesterday how awesome my friend deidre edmunds is. she is adam millers (a beast pitcher at byu) gf. & completely amazing. she & i have gotten pretty close & i am lame & forgot to tell you guys all how much i appreciate her. :) also-- she is competing in miss idaho in june & you should do this for her :)

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Okay- so first question on this lil interview...

Something that you miss.

This is a hard thing for me to write about because i miss A LOT of things. currently tho i am really missing my nanay (gma) gloria. she is probably one of the most important people in my life and i feel like i havent seen her in forever. if you dont know her she is kind of incredible and seriously i want to be just like her when i am older. i miss her cooking, her hugs, and especially being at her house. i have always said her house is better than disneyland- which is saying a lot because i would live at disneyland if i could.. but seriously her house is up there. she does soo much for so many people and i truly look up to her more than she knows. her & i have a relationship unlike any other i have in my life. she is one of my best friends and she tells me things that she doesnt tell anyone else. i trust her judgment more than 

anyone elses and i listen to her before anyone else. i love and miss her like crazy. 

since thursday is almost over....

i should probably blog :) my mom gets on my case if i dont. she says that she has no idea whats going on in my life, and she uses this to stalk me like a creeper. 

THANKFUL THURSDAY

-thankful for job interviews. i had one today at build-a-bear and i REALLY hope i get it. itd be such a fun job and id freaking love it. 

-thankful for the playlist i make for my blog. the songs right now are on repeat and i love them :)

-thankful for good news. lizzie lin called me tonight and told me that she knows who my roommates are for the summer and im way excited about it. she said they are way fun & easy going!!

-thankful for pinterest. it is seriously beyond addicting. no worries-- ive planned my wedding, bridal showers for an army of girls, my future home interior and exactly the ring i would love. call me crazy.

-thankful for tessa mcallister. she is kinda amazing. i am soo happy that we have gotten closer. she lets me come to costco with her, she lets me babysit her perfect angel & let me borrow the last 4 harry potter movies. oh & plus she cut tanners hair tonight and is freaking legit. talk about awesome. :)

-thankful for time. tanner is finally home for an entire weekend. time is seriously precious. i cant stress that enough. i feel like with baseball season i never see him. plus his mission is coming up. im thankful for every second with him. 

-thankful for caring friends and uplifting messages. if i havent mentioned this enough- i have incredible friends. and especially ones that have been around forever. brittany peterson- you are kinda my hero & i love you LOTS! kayla durnian- why cant we live closer to eachother. i miss you & appreciate all of your texts. & kayc- youre literally the best friend on the earth. 

-thankful for emojis. my lil bro finally for an iphone and emoji bombed me. i miss him & madilynne soooo much. 

-thankful for the miracle of birth. it is seriously one of the grossest but most amazing things ever. tanners cousin had her baby today and its insane to me that the human body can not only create and carry a baby but slip it out the way it does. NUTS. 

k the end for now :)