Due to recent events-

I find it extremely necessary to completely pour my heart out on my blog. considering the fact that this is my PERSONAL blog- I am giving fair & clear warning that I don't believe in holding back. This is my place to say what I want & I want to make that perfectly clear. So here we go-

First huge thing- I have made the decision to serve a mission for my church. This is BIG. I can't describe how HUGE this is. A mission for girls use to be a requirement of being 21. Recently the prophet of the church has changed the age to 19. since I'm finally an adult of 20 years old I'm going on a mission. I am soooo excited :) i will be turning my papers in as sooooon as i possibly can. so take a guess as to where i will be serving!! i am soo excited to know where the Lord needs me!

Second thing- things between tanner and i are different. i feel like i need to write it here but its not because i need to explain things but because i am over people asking about it. so its here- tanner and i before he left decided that i could date. its a necessary thing for not only our relationship but also for me as a person. i need to grow up as a person and i need to think about what i need in the long run. i have started to date and am loving it. i want to make it COMPLETELY clear that no matter what anyone is saying about what i am doing- tanner is FINE with it. he wants me to be happy and not have to wonder what could have been. i want him to focus on his mission and serve the lord 100%. so please keep your comments about me and him to yourself. considering that my mission papers should be in super soon and that i will hopefully be out serving by february i need to date before i leave. tanner is still my best friend. i still care about him a lot. if you do have an issue or a question i would be MORE than happy to chat with you about it. just text me or something :)

So- besides those things i have officially turned 20!! its insane. i feel like that is SO old. my birthday was awesome. my cute siblings decorated my car and i loved it! i got some hilarious texts, awesome phone calls, a bouquet of roses and yummy treats. i cannot believe that i am 20 and no longer a teenager. its super weird. 

i have sooo many other events to blog about- but that will wait for another day :) life is good. no matter what.